[manifesto blah blah blah #1]

i have been an addict and alcoholic for most of my life and all of my adult life i have tried the straight & narrow path several times, in fact and have been taught to think that to live otherwise is wrong evil bad ... i have been made to attend classes because of my inevitable run-ins with The Law meant to indoctrinate me with this idea to instill in me my inherent wrongness... yet, one of these instructors who noticed something...different in me admitted that repressing this Evil could beget an even worse Evil: binge-ing to repress these things until they blow up can lead to even worse circumstances than allowing a gradual vetting of this...Evil having 2 beers a day is better than abstaining until one blows out and consumes 2 liters of whiskey ... i have repressed i have regressed i need to EXPRESS myself my life my wrongness my evil ME